it's /your/ job to tell me. HA. Also yes, i know, random internet strangers won't be able to help me as well as a professional. I'm not in a spot right now to seek out an official diagnosis or go to a professional, so to that one person who took this and anyone else who thinks i'm being annoying or smt: I know (not trying to be sarcastic or mean i'm just tired rn and got annoyed at someones response lol)