friends and doesnt know how to make friends and whenever there is an opportunity for me to make friends i just avoid it out of fear because people scare me. and i dont see that i have any worth and no matter what anyone says i always see that my worth can only be determined through people's opinions of me. for example: ive been drawing for four years now and i only started drawing again because i saw how many likes people online got from their art, i wanted to do that because i wanted to feel validated or appreciated in some way, i wanted people to like something about me. it was going well the first a couple of years but in 2022 i started falling off REALLY hard and my mental health was getting worse because of how little people saw my art and sometimes it would be like only 1 or 2 or if im lucky 5 people who see my art. and while i do feel happy that those 1-5 people see my art, i still feel so unseen and hidden and idk what to do. all of my drawings are fanart and it used to reach more people back then. what hurts the most is even tho my art is obviously not THE BEST but its a lot better than what it was when i started and it hurts seeing how i got so much more likes and engagement back then and it feels like it was pity but i wish the pity would come back i wish people would see my art again because i literally have nothing else in life going on for me aside from people's opinions of me and my art. the amount of joy i get when people see my art is huge and any time i realize there is no way for me to come back from this whole thing of people not seeing my art i feel terrible and there were so many times where i would cry because of how no one seems to see my art and no matter what i do or draw barely anyone sees it (continue in the first question)