o calm, collected, charismatic, informative. he helped me build my silver wolf. i watched more guides, as i advanced into the gacha game known as Honkai: Star Rail. all of a sudden, luocha videos started appearing on my feed. i was interested, enchanted, drawn in, and in awe of his beauty, his height, his perfect hairline. after months of debating with myself, i decided to start watching these videos. i don't know how i got to this state. months have passed by in a blur. i cannot fall asleep thinking of luocha being powercrept. i even fell asleep to Braxophone's Luocha guide, and i had a vivid dream where someone was talking to me about multiplication. i have not used my spotify in months, for all i need is Gallagher's melodic voice talking to me. every single time i think about quitting honkai, the thought of eagle brings me back to my senses, reminding me that if nat could spend 100k trailblaze power on Blade, so could i. i have a habit of talking to myself. i started saying random Gallagher voicelines, such as step up lets see ya, time to mix things up, and my friends endulge yourselves, out loud. my parents have expressed their concerns about me, asking why i keep saying strange things in my sleep, as i am a frequent sleeptalker. i fear that i may be disowned, or involuntarily hospitalized. it has gotten to the point where i use luocha powercrept in my daily vocabulary. my friends are confused, terrified, " are you ok. we are all so worried about you." as i assure them that everything is ok, i hear their mumbles of concern, and thoughts about reporting me to my school, and i lament to myself.